why am i in art stream?

well, i remember during my f5, we are all wondering wat course we want to pursue, and when i heard that a few ppl of my class (who arent that bad in their studies) plan on going for accounting, marketing etc...i was thinking why? and i remember i actually thinking of them not ambitious enough. that time, being totally ignorant about anything bout the art stream. i was like living in a world where only science is the best choice, the only choice that would lead to a bright future at that time. in fact, i actually did kinda look down on some of the arts goers.

then soemwhere in the mid of my f5, my dad drag me to the u of notthingham s open day....against my will....well, i din enjoy it. i hate it, because i knew it b4 i went that i was gonna be bored outa my head, but my parents still insisted that i go....
well it wasnt of much help in changing my mind about the way i think also.

but i remember one quesntion that he asked, what i would wanna study.......
i dunno...maybe bio? maybe something else...but i realise i knew nothing else apart from the science subs.
u know, it s just like when u ask a small kid, what he wanna be when he grow up...
u ll probably get this few MOST COMMON answer..........docter, teacher, fireman, police....astronaut, maybe...

why? it s because they know nothing about other possible job!

then later there was this edu expo in our school, i started asking around about the business courses.

fast forward. dec, after spm. i still havent made up my mind...

then my parents told me that they want me to start college in JAN!!!!! and i think they already had it all plan out, that they would like me to go to the art stream. well, they ve done their research, and they practically chosen the subjects for me to take. they wished i d go for accounting.

okay, here i am, despite haveing A1 s in all three science subs (i m damn proud of it okay)
in the A level arts.

i still like biology, and i think id actually love to study psychology, philosophy and history.
for what i am studying now, i learned to love economics. but sadly, i still hates accounts. yes, it s STILL, i used to hate it during my f3 in KH lessons. and i still do. i think i do understand most of it in theory, but i keep missing things out, i ll make out a lousy bookkepper...practice is also one thing i m missing i guess...

but looking at
my dad, who was an architect, and my mom, who s helping him. and now have both fallen gracefully into someone...lower..
my dad who just finished a test for financial planning, and they now have a small shop that could barely survive, and they do insurance, will writting, network marketing....cold calling.....and everything else that they could help us survive and put me thro my studies. which sometimes, make me kinda envy those who are financially stable.

somehow, made me believe that money one of the most importand thing(besides them saying free time also) in my future careerand. somehow been brainwashed into understanding that interest can be cultivated. and we can succed in whatever we choose to be.

anyway, i dont regeret being in arts, and i dont think i will. whereever it leads, i ll just have to live with it.

now, still not really knowing why am i in arts....
but gladly following the well-laid-plans by someothers that think this is actually not a bad idea...
hope that u would understand why i am here.

i like doing the dishes...it gives me time to think. it keeps me away from my games, but gives me a reason not to study, and somehow making me feel like i dint waste my time doing something useless.
forget it, i really should be studying.

we were at BRJ.

in front of me, was a table of 3 people. two of them, a smart looking guy in his thirties and an attractive lady slightly younger than the man..i think...both were in white shirt and b;lack pants, and the man with a nicely done tie. they sat oposite of each other. in between them, was a notebook computer facing the other guy. if i m not mistaken, i think it was the guy from worldzoom cybercafe, owner, most probably.

the com played a slideshow, - which i gather the two of them are probably insurance agents or maybe some unit trust sorta thing - while the man in white explained, and the lady sat with her head resting on her arm, and listen silently. her head resting on one hand. the cafe guy, most of the time he had arms cross in front of him, which sometimes reach up to his mouth while he nods. his legs was cros in the ankle under his chair...occasionally shaking them. he seems to be leaning closer to the com as time pass.

after a while, the com was turned facing the lady. she typed somethings, they started with the paperworks.

wats this u asked? it is nothing! it was just an observation....and i m bored now.