inspiration? *chuckles*
i ll be damn...

hai..another damn long holiday,

ze mo ban leh?

oh yeah on songs, wang kiam said he had a nice song, and sended it to me,
and when i open it...
(hope i get it right)
do, a deer, a female deer,
re, a drop of golden sun,
me, a name i call myself..................
(that song from the sound of music)

i laughed my shit out!
yeah, a nice song indeed..

then he ask me wheter i want 'dont cry for me argentina'
....

really za dao, din know he had such exquisite taste.

anyway, got a couple of songs that keeps hanging in my head.
jay - duan le de xuan
audioslve - like a stone
and
three days grace - i hate everything about you...ahh, another beautiful hate songs.

only when i stop to think about it,
i hate everything all about you,
why do i...

yeah, why?

hai, was intrtupted during my last post,
continues...

i felt the exam meaningless,

i left the phone engage,
i threw my notes aside,
and i went to bed.

fail me!
damnit, so what i score an a, so what if i fail.
so fail me! if it s wat i deserve.

more on exams

well, and because of some reasons lah.
see some friends burned the midnight oil for this exam.
amazing lah, usually some would just go to bed straight after reading one or two bab of the books, but this time, wang din sleep, engyee slept at 5, boonsiong at4. wow, some things actually do wonders, although they arent studying for a good reason lah, but they are still studying!
and then in shcool before the exam, everybody would be outside studying, how hardworking, hardworking until exam starts also dont wanna come in. wah, really alot of diference hoh, this exam.
oh ya, calculators do works wonders!

before exam also,
either me or yuen la, one would be on the phone, the other on the net chit chat (meringankan our burden...and others), and i also had to borrow a hp to sms somethings. wah now days, everything all also can pass so fast. hehe.
only after 12, can lie down in peace...to study.
not! ring ring....hai, got fed up after some time and din put the phone down properly...no more calls....

err... parent were pretty mad...
but they cooled down eventually.

and thanks to my parents *i mean it in a good way* for their advice.
i was ...

whoa, it's been a long time.

let's see where should i start.


EXAMS!

well, lets start from beginning the examination, well, kinda blur liao lah by now.
our first few days of our exam were mostly language and other no-need-to-study-subjects, so everyone also wasnt quite in the exam mood loh. no ppl all around were saying they hardly felt any pressure lo, and most havent even started studying, at least, those who were around me lah.

this exam wasnt set by our skool, so, i guess some of it were pretty hard gua, and also din want to see us die gua, so we did get alot of tips from teachers. during other exam that time, i remember how we used to go over other classes looking for wat tips their teacher gave. but this time was it diferent. since the whole kl were also sitting for the same test, it was like, what tips i got from my teacher, i gave to other skool wan, than they also give us what tips they got from their teacher.
and seksyen 5...

aya, gtg,finish more of it later

still tired, it s like the more i sleep, the more groggy i get =.='

omg, what a day, damn tired,
the SHE concert, well sort of, was lousy, but still fun gua. yeah everything is fun lah.
well, we were waiting there by 3 i think, sitting there waiting, crazy u know. usually, while seeing ppl on the tv or while passing by any events, we would always say that ppl are silly to be so crazy over something. but now...
story cut short, waited till 8 plus only they apear. was damn crowded lah, time square so small somore, pack like sardins. keep pushing left and right, shyue chian and the middle part of the crowd had falled, aiks, but still fine. and me, my dick was on eng yee ass....hai...
and funny lah, we look at the floor and see a pair of ladies shoes, eng yee pick it up, and was shouting : who lost thier shoes!!
lucky i wasnt wearing slippers.
and talking bout 'chou water', plenty in this kind of place, whats weird we were all talking bout the same gal, that wan in pink.
ah tiong leh, when keeping her from falling when she was in front of him, so you can say hugging lah, almost.
me leh, when she was behind, trying to take photo that time, she was all over my back.
eng yee and her ass, during the push.
she was also wearing mini skirt, and chian accidently saw something. yee saw too..
dunno lah, count her 'lucky' gua....
we, boon siong, shyue chian, kent, eng yee, and laichi (not sure) tried our best to make a wall behind ah tiong, our camera man, from the ever flowing crowd, so that he can take nice photo lo. yay, he did manage to take a few clear shots.
when the 'show' starts, it somehow doesnt really seems that...nice(cant think of a better word). its like a battle, strugglung to guard on your own ground, and fighting to push the line forward, to get a clear view of them, which was pretty hard with all the raised hands and banners. and then trying regrouping agaain, if someone was missing from action. despite the struggles, our spirit would never die lo while our song maiden still sings, and so the battle continues, with us shouting our own battle cries, some were like: SELINA!!! HEBE!!! STOP PUSHIN!!! TIU NIA MA!!! and many more lah. but seriously, most of the ppl there just look exhausted.

hebe din look that happy today.

halfway through, the 'sign, sing hui' was canceled, bcoz heard that a few ppl fainted, and a few more went 'missing'. how disapointing.

we also got to see a car being tolled away. the driver tried to talk, but the polis just ignored him.

timesquare was full of disapointed fans.

i am going crazy AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, ok, chill,
the driving instructor, ah mike, drop me off outside my apartment, i ran all the way back up my apartment. the toilet was occupied, so i on the com, and start blasting my music at full volumn, weird, i started dancing along with the music, well, i wouldnt really say dancing, just moving along la. later after he was finish, i took a cold bath, and stared at the mirror, i smiled.

then i came out, and the avril lavigne cd on the shelves caught my attention, i smiled again, wryly. and turn it on.

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive


(things really din happen this way la, just telling story only....sohai lo, i failed my driving test...)

we walked our walked, and came across 3 girls, 3 chinese girls, well, its really rare you know in this area to see anyone that isnt bertudung, well, not really lah, just the skin. and its even more rare to see other chinese who isnt hurring with their lifes, but just walking around, and having a drink. they were walking in the other lane. simon dared me to 'climb moutain', cause he said he wouldnt lo, was tempt to lo, but i also din lo, coward. but erm, are we desperate? nolah, just bored i guess. i mean, its just always been the two of us, two malat lao, walking around like stray dogs, how nice leh if we could join them or some other folks in the neighbourhood.
sigh, it all comes back, we are desperate, noooooooooo. wateva lah

finally, got song again liao,
thanks for fixing it, teck pei!

driving lesssons again today.
man, it sucks. when there s the instucter there, he is so mafan that u wish he wasnt there,
but after he left, everything just seems diferent lo, without him coaching, i panicked.
aiks, knock down a few tiang that time.

lately,
-i realise how much i miss being with boon siong they all...comfortable.
-felt sry for jian wei birthday, it was pretty pathetic.
-i cant stand yan shen anymore.
-shan rong going crazy liao, he was way too high today, siao
-yuen s pretty busy over fizik, *feels bad*
-exam coming, and havent started studying *feels even more bad*
-clean, paint, and decorate our class *at least soemthing to be proud about*
-but lily dint even gave a word of praise, she just continue to find faults in what we'd missed.
-in her lessons today, she talked something about humans and animals...which was stupid. i think she s quite an animal herself, yeah, a dog would suit her just fine, mm..a female dog...yeah, a bitch.
-a lot of mosquito bites, itchy

parents are back with supper.

dad isnt very please with us this few days, this holidays
there's still so much to be done, and i feel kinda guilty over not doing it
and all i can do is sleep n play

erm, a week late liao, but nvm la

1. Explain why you started to journal/blog.
to remember my days, to let out my anger and feelings

2. Do people you interact with day to day or family members know about your journal/blog? Why or why not?
some do, some dont, well, i guess cause' i dont really want some to know, but if its out, i guess i still would be fine with it.

3. Do you have a theme for your journal/blog?
my days, my thoughts, and a cup of cofffee

4. What direction would you like to have your journal/blog go in over the next year?
nowhere i guess. still the same gua

5. Pimp five of your favorite journals/blogs.
squall, teckpei, mingyuen, vincent.
well, not really favourites, but these are the only blogs that i see
others, just visit one time than forget liao.

hai, alot of things in mind, but dunno how to write le, late liao, thoughts also getting very messy,

monday, 4 period of abbika lessons. sien aaa. and shan rong also dian dian like that, keep on speaking in english with his weird voice.
and we were there, with eng yee also discusing the fuck, and putting it in wateva we were saying wat we are saying more 'omph'.
for example, 'you are beautiful' nah, too plain, why not ' you are fucking beautiful'
well, wu liao.

wed i think, read something in the youth 2 part of the star paper,
the definition of a jerk is a jerk who doesnt know he is a jerk...how like lin jie leh.

nite, went out with parents to supper, and realise (well did realise earlier, but now even more la) that i share alot in comon with my parents, my dad especially, and more bad than good, which is wat i wanna think la, and i am worried, if i ll grow up and be just like him, no way!

thursday, only 4 came to skool, hui fen ming fuah, shan ring vanessa.
wow, i really am suprise at how cooperative we are, as a class, we stand together! and ponteng together!
as for the 4 who came, they had their reasons to come :)
ohya, and yuen lost in speech thingy, expected la.

instead of being in skool, i and kek met up at enet and played RO...blah
i came with my house cloaths, but kek change out of his uniform, but still had his shcool shoes on, whcih made me kinda worried, 'cause the cafe staff told us that were polis raids recently, and even ppl with just skool shoes on were taken 'away'.
but luckily nothing happen.
but something else happened, the server went down. and so was my id...deleted.
hmm, come to think of it, i wasnt even angry at that time over there, i remember i just sighed, and had this 'oh well' feeling.
but to think about it now, i am pissed, very angry....
there goes my fucking effort, cash and time.
and hopefully, my adiction too.
now i need something else to fill my empty thoughts, and to keep away my sickening ones.

enough of it, after that, we ate lunch at 'sky down' (direct translation). and i was off to tuition, which i was late.
nothing much to say about it, bio which was about pregnancy, and which caught more of my attention, about twins.
and sho class, as usual la, always talking bout yan shen.
it was raining after tuiton finished, and we went to popular, went around thinking of wat to buy for kek tomolo, saw a few books that seems nice, but all also so damn expensive :/
in the end, bought a book for myself - twin telepathy
later then went to the chinese popular, and finally found a gift!

than fri,
not many came, kek recieve a gift, in the morning, a mysterious gift...but we were right at the first guess...her gua.
hope he likes it ;)
and i like it that way la, quieter, and somehow felt less tension. hehe, hope you all dont come more often la.
anyway, class was kinda usual. the pp zhi hua manage to caught wei ye, diging his nose and his armpit in class with the digicam, in video, yuck, disgusting.
and after recess, there was the this debating competition. the finals, two also chong hwa, ayo, hope one of them was other skool lo. can see some new talents. erm, but i must say, the form 4 looks much better in apearance, well, more handsome and pretty la, the form 5's, chi kuan looks, mature, jin xiang just shabby, and xing yi, looks kinda like a bit like a punk la, his hair. but he looks good la. the form 5 won.
and yan shen was a total bitch that day, well, usually i am fine being alone with him, well just talkiing la, and i kinda like him for being direct, but that day, i loathe him to the bone. the way he treats other ppl.
but i think i ll forget bout it in a day or 2.
after skool, we went to kfc, to celebrate keks bday. we saw seng jie coming with, also.
it was fun. and kek was 'caked' in the face.
and we all went to cafe after that, well, we din know wat to do...
i sat down, but just wasnt in the mood. i left abit ealier.
later in the night, boon heng came over, and told me bout he found out that there's a gay in his skool, and its bothering him. well, he is bothering him, or that wats he think la at least. dunno wat to do leh.

ahh, finally done.