saturday was err...bad.
the english camp, organizze by teachers one, n els was just there to help out, it was lame man.
the teachers peformed a drama, whcih was even lamer, ambika just wanted to be on stage gua,
and later got a erm, how to say le, err...folow my orders activities, it goes something like this:
imagine you are on a beach, raise your hands and smile , blablabla, so everyone walk here n there n raise thier hand lo, then there s a storm coming, ervybody get down, whalala. some did it well lo, wah, really curl up, some erm, just sit down, and wait for the 'storm' to past...then later even got dog barks n howls, colorful wolf come out liao...wu liao le. still small meh.
we, really dint do much there. the activities was for those form1,2. we most of the time, was just up there playing music and, walking around see see.
later dad come n drag me off to the university's open day, it wasnt a happy trip...

well, dad is still on insising that i must go to the u tomorow and see for myself.
bah, what is there to see wo, i probably still wouldnt decide on what i wanna take.
and havent you already planed everything meh, i mean, would you allow me to take up some other crappy course meh.
so what use going leh, you want you go urself n see lo.
and later also wanna go taylor n see. sien, just miss out this one cannnot meh..
grumbles on childishly~~

well, everything turn out kinda ok in the end. well, of course.
phua chu kim was nice, but lame thought...hehe, mayuri did a good job there.

got a ceramah given by a old guy,
anyway, talk about be chosing our own path lo, or was it kong zi? blur blur liao
kinda sien lo, eharing stories after stories. inspiring stories mostly. ok lo.
and in most of the story, the way to success...the old chinese style, kerajinan and patience...
yes it do works lo, but what if we work that hard, but we just cant make it, is it really worth it?...bah, the lazy mans thinking again.
mmm...i wanna be malaysia 1st astronautt!!! isint it coool? or erm...i wanna be the nect yao ming!!! can onot le.

than later into the week there was the eng essay ccompetition.
dunno la, got kinda emotional writing it, and the whole paper looks kinda, erm...cakar ayam la.
anyway, from the topic a knock on the door, write la, scribble la, dunno how le, write until say, rest in peace dear.
blabla, nothing is more touching than a good ol sad story. man, this sucks.

and throughout the whole week, during recess we had the song dedication thing lo.
sien le, all the songs ppl chose also same wan, avril la, blue la, and westlife also, my god!
the afternoon session was more problematic, wah, the whole couter table was surounded by a whole crowd, and some are sooo loud. but i dint did much lo, most of the time just stand there and see the crowd.
wed, also stay back lo, from the sec floor looking down , miss those says lo, when get to play ball during recess. and with all the kids walking up and down in groups, running here and there. chaoticly beautiful

today was els agm, retire lo. good luck to the new guys!

had this drama rehersal, for the english week one.
useless i was just there to watch.
the story like pck story lo. at least will be better than the chinese week gua or bm.
anyway, it was all pretty last minute kinda thing. messy...
and ambika makes things worse by modifying almost everything,
i saw ppl frowning...

after school, i played ball, i din really like playing, just wanted to let out some gas.
i felt tired, inside, not outside, i just wanna rest, not sleep, relax~
i just wanted to stayed in shcool, longer...
just as i went to cyber later after it all, man, everything is getting boring, cs la, wc la.
but i just dont wanna go home, just wanna stay...a bit longer...
so stay i did lo. and it rain...

he seems lost ~ love?

nvm, its none of my business...

yesterday was kinda a nice day where i spend half of the day in front of the tv and monitor, than i went out...with my parents, eat duinner, which was pretty nice, talking. but then something went wrong, and mom was angry and we went home in silence. we sended aunts to train station , and i was sent home. and chit chat with simon,
he said something, and i thought bout it..
straightforward, sarcastic, negative, boring.
we also talk bout those blow water ppl arr.
and how they all resemble each other.
when u say something, they would say: nolah, and bable on how much better they or soneone they know is better.
and how they tend to be soooo dramatic.
and we chated about many more lo. his skool life, which i dont find very intresting. his tuiton, which was amusing and nice to listen. gals lo, and which i think he could if he jut say so.
then, we left, and i went back to playing the rest of the night, or whats left of it.

friday, we woke up late, 7+.
after dad drop us down, we walked our way to shcool, i like that walk.
the road were quiet, and the day was bright but still cool. i shivered. but it was just nice.
the rest of the day wasnt, just like i ssaid before, no, i wasnt that bored, i just felt grogy, and heavy, and every breath come out long like a sigh, wondering what am i doing here.

thursday, was when we disect the frog. i din feel good about it. but still, i slaughter it, merciless
i dont really think i would be fit to be a doctor though...but only time will tell.

wednesday, i recieve i pillow in the shape of a bone, thanks guys!
then, i had to do that rhythm thing about celebrities.
i did outkast, and after reading throught various sources. i find them real weird.
now, i just their hey ya mtv, and i find them weirder, but hey, thats unique right?

cant rememebr the rest of the week liao, thats all for now gua.

today was another of those days where i feel myself bored, tired and with the same ol rotting feeling inside me. sienzZzzZZzZ

wah, see everyones blog all also bout katak. mine also lo.

i fucking hate it!!! its so sick!!!
i wonder how would it feel to have yourself crucified onto a board, tummy slit open, legs cut off, bones snap off, guts dug out, and see your own heart beating on the table.

Thank You!

the day started off pretty bad, i was still in bed, listening to them outside, arguing something bout grand and others on my mothers side, aunt sound like she was almost in tears.

i hide myself under the blanket, and went back to sleep.

the sky is crying now

my, feel so sick. no, not the flu kind or anything of that sort. just sick in like wanna vomit like that.
parents busy lo, and i ve been stuffing my self with all those new year goodies lately. just ate many many cookies for breakfast, and feel soooo bad. bah, nevermind la.

yesterday, more of lily lessons. bullshit!
saying us cheap, she is just so fucking out. probably you all are so lousy that you turn your spouse into a beast.
people who keep everything inside, are ill.
and people who lets it out, are sick.
so everyone is either ill, or sick.
read it up from storybook, but sounds meaningful.

i wonder who is ill, and who is the sick one.

and she talk about religion, need to pray la, understanding la and bla bla bla.
and that those without one are, cant remember the words, but it just isnt good.

you dont have to be a fanatic, and it doesnt matter how you show it, , as long as you have faith, and do good to others.
you ll know it yourself.
but i dont really think i have faith in anything.

then, about those without one. but whats so wrong without a religion,
ppl still could be still bermoral and disiplin without one.
i am not saying all, but sometimes, it is those who are weak, who have nowhere to turn to, they turned to god, and say everything that its god will, that its fate.
no, i donnt mean to critises those who are faithful. and hope i dint offended anyone.

some are teaching from others, some are my own.
awe , now please, dont be so sensitive.

well, at least problems with dad doesnt last long.
we ated supper and we talked and joked about him, and he took it pretty well, as always.

but with grands, aunt is going back to penang to calm things down.
i hope for the best.

1st problems with my father side. and now, a fucking crisis at my moms.
bah, too complicated, i ll just skip it.

then had some problems with dad.

then i skip tuition

then i went out with simon to jj today. chit chat bout this n that. then go cut my hair. i thought it would ended up awful while when cutting, but at least it turned out ok la.

all just to piss him off.

~foolish~