studies...damn...again.....so what if I've fail half of my test....dont really care....my parents kept the laptop...damn, is that going to solve any problem? i play because i dont feel like studying, i dun wanna study, and now...spend most of my time on the net with this slow com...wasting my time....

Superficial...i hate all those fake ppl...chua lin jie....such an asshole....always acting so stupid...sohai...big big sohai....does he really think teachers are gonna fall all those stupid excuss? and sometimes...cant he really see what happening around him? the way ppl treat him?and he is a fucking president of a society....damn...

so insecure...so depressed...wonder why did i even told vin about this....promise are meant to be broken....secrets are meant to be known...its only a matter of time....damn, i hate myself for doing it....and u too vin....fuck u...

All our local show so damn cha....talk about love....the acting so fake...why couldnt they just speak manglish...pck doing very well speaking that way....why couldnt they wo....that stupid pelik tapi benar even worse...trying to make it like the ripleys believe it or not...the host so ....stupid, ugly haircut....and what's so pelik about a road that starts with a zero or something...dint really got the whole thing...but stupid...the other is a hotel with some kind of bar next to the swimming pool....wtf?

so sien...took another stupid quiz....

You aren't evil at all. Why did you waste your time
taking this quiz. Your self righteousness makes
me sick!


Are you evil in a good or bad way?
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You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.


What Kind of Smile are You?
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Is this really me???

flashback....

still remember..two years ago, the last day of the firsr semester, everybody was having fun,I was all alone, just sitting there, staring out of the window, feeling the cool breze blowing in., I in the front sit, all alone....then she came,..there were golddust on her face, must be playing....she sat there next to me....damn! what to say....I totaly freak out, just sat there...doing nothing like an idiot.........

Damn fan....stupid computer...had to restart 3 times already....really should think about upgrade it...

just read a blog from some hitori guy.....my life is really like his....everything sucks....

heard that regional is coming...really hope to enter...but have to depend on alex and adrian for information and cards...sigh.......hope that they are going....busy cathing up with the latest news....really have to thank the net....

boring.....boring...boring....boring....boring....

something stupid said....

really dont know about this....bringing it up at a time like this

may seems stupid...even foolish...i think i m...

even more by knowing that there is someone else....

but dont really care anymore...been a coward all this time...

always avoiding...cant even bring myself to speak to you at times...

all i wanna say is i really like u....

.....r u serious?.....

Din't go kawat for the last two days...wondering if I am gonna get fired...funny thinking that boon siong ponteng kawat...and when he was going for tuition...he was in the same bus with sai kit...our instructor...yuen was also in the same bus....and when boon siong get down...sai kit was smiling at him...

shcool so sien...at least founded something new to do...passing msgs with kim wai...very wu liao....

dunno....maybe I do.....damn you all hahahahha.

Black:
PEOPLE SUCK THE WORLD SUCKS EVERYBODY SHOULD BE
KILLED AND BLEED TO DEATH TILL THE COLD EARTH
SOAKS IN BLOOD. Well, you're angry at the
world. For reasons who knows, but you
definately hate life.


What color do you see the world in?
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Haha, cool!

your asshole.


What swear word are you?
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got so much I wanna write but dont feel like writing...lazy le.....fucking hate myself for what i am...

english week just started today...els performed a drama...dont even know whats it talking about...the drama was planned by the teachers....and so all the songs in it were all oldies...hai...twist la....limbo la.....outdated lo....one of the teacher acted in it....hayati...i think.....gao lo...after that got song dedications...i was part of it...need to run up and down telling whats the next song...tthe afternoon sesion was worse...in between that...aafter luch...'cause nothing to do...me, jann and kenneth just sat in the canteen and talk...mostly talk about chee chow and his love life...pretty sad story for such a nice guy like him....other than that...mostly hearing kenneth talking bout his love.....

kawat
Today...the second day of our pp kawat training...we were halfway through training when it rained...we got a chice...go home or go to the hall and practice where psbs, krs and the polis cadets are practicing...of course that would be a shame to us because we are all newbies who cant even walk properly...most of us of course wanted to go home....but in the end ...we were forced to go and practise because sports day is not far away....we felt even more stupid when we reach there...krs got some kind of formation..and the cadet polis is soooo qi....we all felt very stupid over there....whats worse is that the headmaster is there and vidoe camering them practise....or gals? dunno...luckily it stop raining before we get to march out...phew...most of us were considering wearing a bag on the head...

Hari Asas today...boring....only two shows...from violet and xi wen they all and ubs...the rest all ban jiang...sien....

recive 100 for pmr....dunno why 8a also 100 and 6 got nothing....other interesting things...Hokien got a prize for highest marks in p.moral, good for someone who tidak bermoral gua...kok soon got prize for bi...he really felt uneasy recieving it 'cause his teachjer hjas been pulling some strings....

damn...she here now.......finally get to tell her...throught icq....a damn stupid way...but just want to tell her.....dint really giv an answer....guess she din't....at least she din't shout back telling what a jerk I am...dunno...somehow just felt relieve....

War

Bushy declared war on Iraq...started bombarding Iraq with cruise missiles and with bombers...ground units are on their way...

Saddam lauch some SCUD missile to Kuwait...dunno what happen to them...

dunno why...don't really care about his war....as long as we are not involve and it doesn't turn into ww3...also dunno who the good guy....and whos the bad on now...each has their own version of it...

Lota events after shcool these days...yesterday should stay back for kawat...almost all of the people(boys) I ask dint go...later find out that only 7 out of 30 over people went....the pp ajk must be pretty mad...started to give out surat amaran the next day...alot of people got it...leong wai kit got all 4 amaran...funny how bor jian din't get-tidak sopan...dunno why I din't get...

today kawat....pp really bad at it...sai kit kinda blur about how to kawat...chee wah turn most of the things to jokes....everything went bad...our pp verry sia sui.

later..qing yao took me to british counsel....took a test...the paper test quiet ok gua...but later when come to some speaking...damn...can't speak up....

it's kinda nice there...got a small library...free internet servie...there are also quiet a lot of orang putih there...

Some other people...don't know why...I actually kinda pity them...dunno...the way people bring up TPei or Vanessa...most of them aren't good...some others like guo quan...dunno la...always there alone...Lai tho also...a lota people hate him....

Hai...a bad day
After school...went to gk...a bad day lo....wc lose..counter le...always ended up dying...

when reach setiawangsa...just in time to see the bus left...decided to walk home...then it rained...

Finally came back home...take a warm shower...and here I am in front of the computer....watch she hates me mtv.....just wish I could be like the person in there going mad smashing things up...

Tomorow is the last day of exam....maths and physhics...don't feel like studying at all....especially since finish the ad-maths paper....just want to go cc and play my heart oout...punch some holes with my sniper....hoping that boon heng will come....play some kof.....

ELS

sien lo...the whole thing....

teachers...ambika...a control freak...the chinese teacher who went to us before...heard she slap someone before too...find hard to respect anyone who do so...the rest all are better off not there....invisible...

hui fen is president....a least the society won't fall, talita vice president...won't be a good one gua...vanessa vice secatary....treasurer is where the fei chai go...kenneth...treasurer...and me as vice treasuer....expected more than that...but actually suprised that I even gotten a position....really have to admit that the members of the form four sux....other than hui fen and vanessa, the rest all kinda useless....

drama le...hai....sujin as directer...she...good lo....but the story line very wu liao...about some kampung nelayan...not enough actors gua...bring in some malay boys...also very wu liao like those senario guys...me...should have left went hui fen they all left...been drag into that stupid thing...row...row...became a stupid sailor... i guess i won't be going for the next few weeks...

Yesterday night ...vincent was online...he really seems great at getting people together....had a good chat with rui kang and lawrence...

Freindship doesn't really last forever....everybody changes....and everybody will go away someday...wheter by their ambition...friends...or just fate, it doesn't matter..they'll all go....

The Vines~Get Free


'm gonna get free

I'm gonna get free


I'm gonna get free


Ride into the sun





She never loved me


She never loved me


She never loved me


Why should anyone?





Come here


Come here


Come here


I'll take your photo for ya





Come here


Come here


Come here


Drive you around the corna

Exam

Despite what everybody talking about how hard exam is...don't really think that it's that hard...don't really care about the exam...but care what others think about...but does anybody cares?...or is it just me being competitive....starting to become the jerk that I once think people are....

At home...don't feel like studying b'cause everything seems like I have read before....ended up playing most of the time...feel kinda guilty about it...

in school le...dunno wheter it's is presure or what..alway wanting to walk out of the classroom....

No 'heart' to study...a day before exam and I am still playing the whole day (almost)...dunno what I want...part of me doesn't want to care about the exam...part of me want to prof that I am as good as them...dunno I ponteng today to study or just to get away from shcool...

shcool's pretty boring...teachers always absent...always sleeping in class....


A;ways avoidiong her...can't bring myself to talk o her....but could't stand a moment without looking at her....

friday...I was walking home from lrt when it suddenly rained...it wasn't that bad...kinda love the feeling walking alone in the rain...

Lost in thought in the rain.

Wednesday...

Usual Geo class in Apt room after school....small class that consist of 10 ppl or so...kinda like that class...kinda like a small class for change...Miss Lee Oii Ping sux though...

Started tuition at Suria...lousy...too small...pretty noisy...Chee Wah(both)...Chew Ling, Vanessa, Puai Yee...the only ppl who seems to do their work...sitted next to Swee Loo...childish....ok though....

Suria

Unorganize...lame teachers...slow...not prepare...notes taken from reference books...can't seems to control the class...threaten to punish student to stand for the rest of his class....stupid exmaples...stupid jokes....many more....

Ang Wei Cheng

Dunno why...hate him....a loser in my opinion...always wanting to impress...selfish...

Dunno whter his blog is his diary or a showroom...some of the things just seems like stupid excuses...avoiding.......

but how diferent am I from him?

Adiction...

I think I am adicted to blogging....have to online no matter what just to post a blog....

Dad...

dunno...pretty anoying...like a busybody....don't know how to look, always have to stare.....many more...can't think of it right now....

Holiday...exam coming...

Don't know how would my exam go leh...few week in school now but everything still seems pretty blur....need to catch up with my studies...
started with phsysics...
confusing!!! at least clearer now.....but still got other subjects to go through.

Internet connection damn slow....almost spended the whole afternoon trying to get into this site.

Yesterday

Din't have time to online...or din't wanted to online...dunno....

American Music Awards was on air....Eminem swept quiet a lot of awards....poor Nelly.

Really hope that Puddle of Mudd would win in one award(forgoten which one), caught a clips of their She Hates Me mtv....cool.

She Hates Me....really like that song....or the lyrics....

Busy....spend the whole afternoon finding some stupid things for EST and some things for the Chinese poetry thing.

Santhi....bitch!, imagine finding the gender of flowers!!!! Type rose and you get lovey-dovey things, type bisexual flower and....you get things related to gays!

wasted whole afternoon....at least gotten something for the poet project I was working on


TTpei, Carolyn, and Andrew was online

TTpei...asked somethings on PP, learn that he was going for treasurer (me too), wondering wheter everybody is going for treasurer because it's easier?

Carolyn...Small talk...gossiping on teachers-Santhi, fun though.

Andrew...nothing at all...

She was also online, ask her a few questions on homework just to chat something up...din't hold up.

freaking out, don't know what to say...damn, just sat there silently....

she sended me a URL, something about forwarding it to someone special, wondering wheter it was meant for me....guess not...
forwarded it to my whole list (except some people).


D-Day and War
Readed up something D-Day and weopon of mass dustruction

bombs, wheter chemical, biological or nuclear...horrible.

But I was interested in D-Day, which later I 'reach' to the interest to know about the rise and falls and nations....anything that has war.

War...Horible...exciting.....just plainly interesting.